As a result of years of
- terrible self esteem
- a persecution complex
- slight paranoia
- a need to express my views
- an inferiority complex resulting directly from a superiority complex [Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Conversations with Dead People, circa 2002]
, my tone of writing is (probably) usually questioning instead of stating. (I think.)
The question this time is: “is project planning terrible?”. I’ve been elected as a mini project manager in training – torn from the soft, safe cocoon of .NET development and pushed unceremoniously into creating a project plan for my dev team of 5 members. Now let me make it clear. My lack of self confidence extends to the fact that I am unsure of how often to go to the bathroom during my work hours. How much self development do you think is necessary to decide the complexity and duration of tasks for 5 people for 7 months in the future?
The way I see it, there are two possible outcomes to this attempt at “growing” me:
- The project fails miserably. I lose all my dignity. I transform into a different person. I lose trust and contact with all the people in my life.
- I transform into a different person and pull it off. As a result of being a different person, I lose trust and contact with all the people in my life.